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  “How could I forget it? You were furious at me.”

  “Well, I sneaked out later that night to meet with Colonel Taylor in secret.”

  True shock showed on his handsome face. “The devil you say!”

  “I went to him and…and offered to elope.” She turned away, the mortifying memory making it impossible for her to meet her brother’s gaze. “He refused. It seems he was exactly the bounder you said he was. He did want me only for my inheritance. And I was too foolish to see it.”

  She waited for him to pounce on her confession as a way to demonstrate that she’d made rash decisions in the past. When he patted her knee kindly instead, she had to bite back more tears.

  “Not foolish, moppet.” His voice was husky with caring. “You were merely young. Women follow their hearts at that age, and as they say, love is blind. You couldn’t see his character as truthfully as the rest of us.”

  “Oh, but I should have! Everyone else could see it—you, Papa, even Mama. I was the only one who couldn’t.”

  “Is that why you won’t countenance other suitors? Because you think they’ll deceive you?”

  She worried one of the ribbons on her blue levantine morning gown, twisting it round and round her gloved index finger. “While Mama was ill, I couldn’t think of suitors. After she died, I guess I…lost my nerve. I chose so badly the first time, and now I don’t know if I can distinguish the fortune hunters from the reliable men.”

  “You can’t accuse any of my friends of wanting you for your fortune. Take St. Clair, for example. I’ll admit his fortune is small, but then wealth doesn’t matter to him. And he often comments on your beauty.”

  “St. Clair would never countenance my work. He wants a mistress of the manor, not a reformer.” She added in a teasing tone, “Besides, he likes salmon, and I simply can’t abide a man who likes salmon.”

  “Be serious, Sara. There are plenty of men who would suit you perfectly.”

  She twisted the ribbon tighter. “Not as many as you’d think. Men beneath my station are attracted by my fortune, and men above my station need not saddle themselves with a wife who’ll plague their friends about reform.”

  “Then find someone in the middle.”

  “There’s no such creature. I’m a commoner adopted by an earl, but with no lineage to speak of. I’m neither fish nor fowl. I don’t belong in your world, Jordan. I never have. The only place I’m comfortable is with the Ladies’ Committee, and there are no potential suitors among them, I assure you.”

  What she left unsaid was that she’d never found a man of any station with whom she could imagine spending the rest of her life. Jordan’s friends were all very nice, but they would rather play at life than do anything useful. And none of them understood her. Not a one.

  “Deuce take it, Sara, if I thought it would keep you from going, I’d marry you. We’re not blood relations. We could marry, I suppose.”

  She laughed. “I suppose? Such enthusiasm!” Knowing how he felt about marriage, she was surprised he’d even suggest it. She tried to imagine being married to Jordan and recoiled at the thought. “What an idea! It’s impossible and you know it. We may not be siblings by blood, but we’re siblings in every other way. We could certainly never consummate a marriage.”

  “True.” He looked vastly relieved that she’d refused his hastily spoken offer. “Besides, it wouldn’t keep you from going, would it?”

  “I’m afraid not. Come now, Jordan, this convict ship won’t be as awful as you imagine. Most of the women were convicted of non-violent crimes. The surgeon will have his wife aboard, and missionaries have brought their wives with them in the past. I’ll be perfectly safe.”

  They’d passed into the Strand, and he glanced out the window as if seeking for answers in the glittering shops that catered to the aristocracy. “What if you took a servant along for protection?”

  She cast him a shrewd glance. He was weakening, she could tell. She chose her words carefully. “I can’t take a servant. We’re keeping my relation to you a secret. I’m supposed to be a spinster schoolteacher. I’ll be running a school for the convict women and their children, as the missionaries have previously done.”

  “Children?”

  The very thought of all the children who ended up traveling aboard those ships made her see red. “Yes, a transported convict woman is allowed to take with her any male child under six and any female child under ten. If you think I’ll be exposed to terrible sights, think of those poor children,” she said grimly.

  He was silent a moment, as if envisioning it. “Why must you be incognito?”

  “I’m keeping a journal chronicling the abuses. If the captain and crew know I’m your sister, they’ll hide what they’re doing. We want an honest assessment of conditions on the voyages, which is why we can’t tell them of my noble relations.”

  “That doesn’t mean I can’t send someone—”

  “Sara Willis, schoolteacher, wouldn’t travel with a servant, I assure you.”

  “Wonderful,” he said with considerable sarcasm. “You won’t even have a servant on your side.”

  “I won’t need one.” She tried for a lighter tone. “Do you think me so inept I can’t do without a maid for a while?”

  “You know quite well that ineptness has nothing to do with it.” He paused. “So you think to set sail on the Chastity, do you? Devil take it, that’s an inappropriate name for the ship if I ever heard one.”

  When she shot him an irritated glance, he turned his face from her to stare out the window. They were already driving up in front of the Blackmore townhouse on Park Lane, an impressive Palladian villa meant to intimidate any of the lesser mortals who ventured into its lofty halls.

  Sara could remember how its towering pillars and myriad windows had awed her when she and her mother had first come to dinner there. But her stepfather hadn’t let her feel intimidated. He’d offered to show her the new litter of puppies in the kitchen, and that had endeared him to her forever.

  Sometimes she missed him as much as she missed her mother. She’d never known her real father, and the earl had filled that position so admirably that she could never think of him as anything but a father. He’d loved her mother dearly. Though his death a year after her mother’s had devastated both her and Jordan, it had come as no surprise. Lord and Lady Blackmore had never liked to be parted.

  The carriage shuddered to a halt, and Jordan climbed down onto the frost-crusted driveway, turning to help her out. He didn’t release her hand at once, but took it in both of his. “Is there nothing I can say to talk you out of this?”

  “Nothing. It’s something I must do. Really, Jordan, you shouldn’t worry. Everything will be fine.”

  “You’re my only family now, moppet. And I have no wish to lose you, too.”

  A lump formed in her throat as she squeezed his hand. “You won’t lose me. You’re just lending me out for a while. The year will fly by, and I’ll be back before you know it.”

  A year. It sounded like forever to Jordan. Although he said nothing as she tucked her hand in his elbow and let him lead her into the house, he wanted to rant and rave and shake her senseless. A woman of her station on a convict ship! It was insanity!

  But there was little he could do to stop her. Perhaps if Father were alive…

  No, even Father had been unable to curb Sara when she was determined upon some course. Her tale of sneaking out to meet Colonel Taylor proved that.

  The devil take Taylor! If it weren’t for that deuced colonel, she might even now be settled with a husband and two babes, instead of gallivanting off to Australia on a fool’s errand.

  He watched as Hargraves came out to take her cloak and she cast the man an accusing glance.

  Poor Hargraves colored to the roots of his thinning hair. “I’m sorry, miss. Truly I am.”

  As usual, Sara softened at the sight of the servant’s remorse. Patting Hargraves’s hand, she murmured, “It’s all right. You were just doing you
r duty.”

  As she left them both to climb the thickly carpeted stairs, Jordan stood there staring after her. The woman was too kind and generous by half. How on earth would she survive on a convict ship? Her work with the Ladies’ Committee had given her a taste of human misery, but she’d never been immersed in it. Once aboard that ship, she’d be stuck there a year or more. Unprotected. Alone.

  He looked at her slender back, at the wisps of auburn hair escaping her chignon, at her unconsciously feminine walk, and a sigh escaped his lips. Sara was oblivious to her own attractions. She might feel awkward in society, but that had never kept men from desiring her. Quite the contrary. He’d spent her first season quelling the untoward advances of her more eager suitors.

  It wasn’t that she was especially pretty, though her looks were certainly presentable. She drew men to her with her intelligent manner and her frank kindness toward everyone, regardless of their station. A sour, pinch-faced spinster teacher might have nothing to fear from the sailors aboard the Chastity, but that wouldn’t be true of Sara. How could he let her go off on that ship with no protection whatsoever?

  He couldn’t. And since forbidding her to go was useless, he had only one alternative. He must make other arrangements for her protection.

  As soon as Sara was out of earshot, he faced Hargraves. “Do you know any sailors?”

  “Aye, my lord.” The middle-aged servant took his great coat and beaver hat, his face carefully expressionless. “My youngest brother, Peter, is a sailor.”

  A plan was forming in Jordan’s mind. “Is he capable of defending himself? Or defending someone else?”

  Hargraves shot him a shrewd glance. “He served in the navy for six years before he signed on with a merchant ship. He’s good in a fight, as I recall. I don’t see him much, you realize, since he’s at sea most of the time.”

  “Is he at sea now?”

  “As it happens, my lord, he sailed into port a fortnight ago.”

  “Excellent. Do you think he’d be willing to go to sea again in a few days’ time? There’s a handsome sum of money in it for him.”

  The servant nodded. “I’m sure he’ll be willing. He’s got no wife to worry about. Besides, he owes me a favor or two.”

  “Have him come here tomorrow at ten. And be sure Sara doesn’t see him. Do you understand?”

  “Indeed I do,” Hargraves said with a conspiratorial air. “And may I say, my lord, that I’m sure Peter will suit your purpose.”

  “I hope so.” With a smile, Jordan dismissed Hargraves, pleased to have found a way to keep an eye on Sara while she was on that dreadful ship. He would reserve judgment until he met Peter Hargraves, but if the man proved suitable, Sara would have a companion on the Chastity. Whether she wanted one or not.

  Chapter 2

  Nobody should trust their virtue with necessity, the force of which is never known till it is felt, and it is therefore one of the first duties to avoid the temptation of it.

  —LADY MARY WORTLEY MONTAGU

  ENGLISH SOCIETY FIGURE, LETTER, 22 JUNE 1752

  A week after Sara’s discussion with her stepbrother, she stood on the decks of the Chastity. It was early morning, when the ocean looked like a fluid carpet. It was such a marvel. She’d never even glimpsed it until two days ago when they’d passed out of the Thames into open water, but already she loved its changeable nature.

  The first day it had been like a spirited dragon carrying ships on its sharply undulating back. Its breath had sprayed mist over the rails into their faces, and its watery claws had slapped furiously against the hull, forcing the three-masted frigate to roll and pitch on each fresh swell.

  Today, however, it was gentler, more like a rocking horse thumping the ship along in a pleasing motion. She breathed in the salt-drenched air, so different from the cloying stench in London. Thank goodness she’d escaped the seasickness that plagued some of the convicts. It was as if she’d been meant to sail.

  “’Tis a lovely day, ain’t it, miss?” said a voice at her side.

  She whirled to find one of the sailors standing beside her at the rail. She’d noticed him before, looking at her as if trying to make her out. Something about him struck her as familiar, but she couldn’t figure out why. He looked like nobody she knew. A wiry man of about thirty years, with big ears and skinny limbs, the only thing he resembled was an organ grinder’s monkey. Though he seemed harmless enough, the intensity of his interest disturbed her.

  And he was standing far too close. “Yes,” she murmured, edging away from him along the rail. “It is indeed a lovely day.” Turning her face back toward the ocean, she pointedly ignored him, hoping that would make him leave her alone.

  But he only moved closer. “You’re the one what’s teaching the convicts, ain’t you? Your name’s Miss Willis?”

  “Yes, we begin our classes this morning.”

  When he leaned toward her, her heart began to pound, and she scanned the ship for some sign of rescue. But despite the sailors scrambling about the spider’s web of rigging above her, no one was within hailing distance. Not that she would hail any of the twenty-two crewmen. She didn’t trust them one jot. Already she’d had to chastise a sailor she’d found sneaking into the ship’s prison quarters late at night when she’d left her tiny cabin, unable to sleep.

  But where were the captain and the ship’s officers this morning? Or the surgeon and his wife?

  “I been wanting to speak to you—” the man began, and she braced herself to give him a sharp set-down. Then the ship’s bell rang, signaling the beginning of the next watch.

  As the men scurried down from the rigging and others came on deck, she used the ensuing bustle to escape the strange sailor. But her blood thundered in her ears as she hurried to the saloon where she and the ship’s officers breakfasted. Perhaps Jordan’s concern for her had been warranted, after all.

  Don’t be silly, she told herself as she entered the familiar saloon. There are plenty of people around. Just don’t stroll about the deck alone anymore.

  But that wasn’t easy to do. She couldn’t bear to stay in her cabin or below decks all the time, and there was no one to stroll with her on deck. She watched glumly as Captain Rogers entered and took his seat at the opposite end of the breakfast table. The good captain would never escort her. A blustering, gruff man in his fifties, he was more interested in sailing his ship than in talking to the troublesome woman the Ladies’ Committee had sent aboard.

  She glanced around the table at her other companions. The officers were all too busy to walk with her. And although the surgeon and his wife would probably accompany her, she’d prefer complete solitude to any conversation with them. She’d never seen such a somber pair, full of dire predictions about storms and shipwrecks. Why, the surgeon had already terrified one of the convict women’s girls by claiming that her protruding forehead proved she would lead a life of crime, like her mother. The girl had calmed down only after Sara had pointed out that the surgeon’s wife had a similar forehead, though it was hidden by corkscrew curls.

  The ship’s cook thrust a bowl of oatmeal in front of Sara, and she grabbed the edge to keep it from skittering along the table with the movement of the ship. No, finding a companion was not the answer. She would simply have to content herself with her work. Thankfully, there was plenty to keep her busy, what with the eight children of school age aboard the Chastity, in addition to the fifty-one convict women and the thirteen younger children. She suspected that everyone—except the two babies, of course—would need some sort of schooling.

  Thus, an hour later when she went below to the prison cells on the orlop deck, she found herself eager to begin. Oddly enough, she felt safer with the convict women than she did with the sailors.

  With the cell doors open and the women milling around preparing for the day, she could almost forget they were criminals. They were divided loosely into eight messes. At night, two messes of women and their children were locked in each of the four nine-by-twelve-foot
cells, but during the day, they had more freedom. As they moved in and out, stowing their belongings on one of the three levels of berths and washing up at a barrel of sea water, they looked remarkably like any other traveling women.

  Well, except for the tattoos, of course, that peeked out from beneath some of the women’s coarse cuffs. What possessed a woman to adorn her body so permanently? Probably the same thing that drove civilized women in past decades to wear powdered wigs and hoop skirts. Convict fashions were probably no more bizarre than any fashion.

  In truth, only the most hardened criminals wore tattoos, the women who’d been in gangs of burglars or who’d mixed prostitution with thievery. The dairy maids and shopgirls who’d been sentenced to exile for stealing pies and used clothing would never dream of defacing their bodies.

  Grabbing onto a post when the ship dipped, Sara surveyed the lot of them with a critical eye. Their clothing was pitiful. As usual, the Navy Board’s regulations were idiotic. Some fool had dictated that wool and flannel carried disease and thus were unacceptable materials for convict uniforms. As a result, the sad wretches wore cotton gowns that proved no protection at all against the wintry air of the North Atlantic. Even the children were allowed only cotton garments.

  Something must be done about that at once. In addition to the summery muslins she’d packed in anticipation of warmer climes, she’d also packed five inexpensive wool gowns. But she didn’t need all of them. Two would suffice, though it meant washing every day. The others could be made into warmer clothing for the little ones. As for the women, perhaps she could prevail upon the captain to allow a stove to be placed in the hold, at least until they neared the tropics.

  But that could be dealt with later. Now it was time to set her little school in motion. Releasing the post and spreading her feet wider to allow her a better balance on the rolling bottom of the ship, she clapped her hands to gain the women’s attention.